Hi My name is Brian. I am 44 years old.
I guess you could say that I was a late bloomer, and accepting I was gay. It was around the age of 35 That I came to realize that being a heterosexual, just wasn't me. I always liked being with other boys ever sense I could remember. I even tried being a heterosexual but it just never seamed right or natural to me. Starting out in life as a child in the foster care system, left me open to all kind of things no child is ever ready for or should have to go threw. When Guys asked me about being a kid and growing up. I tell them; “think of the worse things possible that can be done to a child, short of killing him and you have me.”
But through all that, I became a strong, caring, masculine man. With values unlike most. Because it taught me how not to treat others, because they are different from the norm. Normal is only a word that people use when they can't think of anything else. But for me I think I'm special. Not because of the things I've learned how to do,but, because I'm a one of a kind person, yet no more special than I consider everyone else to be. We each have so much to offer.
I was raised by a family that loved me and that's what mattered to me most. But, for me, being gay has also had it downside. Being raised in a Christian community was a constant struggle growing up. I noticed over the years that being a Christian is much more confusing than being gay. Because, even in a packed house of Christian people. No two view there religion the same way. So I learned to find my own path to what being a Gay Christian is. To be open and honest first to yourself, always follow your heart. I found it to be the best teacher in the way to treat others is to do what feels right in your heart and not mind what others think you should. I feel whether a gay man is out or not, is a freedom of choice and to each his own. For he knows himself best. Even though, I still question things in my life, I figure if I didn't, how could I learn and grow to be a better gay person? As a friend once told me; When I would say I'm just a plain and simple guy, he would always tell me; “Your much more than plain and way beyond simple.” Every contact that I make in life I teaches me to be a better gay man.
I guess you could say that I was a late bloomer, and accepting I was gay. It was around the age of 35 That I came to realize that being a heterosexual, just wasn't me. I always liked being with other boys ever sense I could remember. I even tried being a heterosexual but it just never seamed right or natural to me. Starting out in life as a child in the foster care system, left me open to all kind of things no child is ever ready for or should have to go threw. When Guys asked me about being a kid and growing up. I tell them; “think of the worse things possible that can be done to a child, short of killing him and you have me.”
But through all that, I became a strong, caring, masculine man. With values unlike most. Because it taught me how not to treat others, because they are different from the norm. Normal is only a word that people use when they can't think of anything else. But for me I think I'm special. Not because of the things I've learned how to do,but, because I'm a one of a kind person, yet no more special than I consider everyone else to be. We each have so much to offer.
I was raised by a family that loved me and that's what mattered to me most. But, for me, being gay has also had it downside. Being raised in a Christian community was a constant struggle growing up. I noticed over the years that being a Christian is much more confusing than being gay. Because, even in a packed house of Christian people. No two view there religion the same way. So I learned to find my own path to what being a Gay Christian is. To be open and honest first to yourself, always follow your heart. I found it to be the best teacher in the way to treat others is to do what feels right in your heart and not mind what others think you should. I feel whether a gay man is out or not, is a freedom of choice and to each his own. For he knows himself best. Even though, I still question things in my life, I figure if I didn't, how could I learn and grow to be a better gay person? As a friend once told me; When I would say I'm just a plain and simple guy, he would always tell me; “Your much more than plain and way beyond simple.” Every contact that I make in life I teaches me to be a better gay man.